It sucks growing older

Musical is all over... our last show was last night and I bawled my eyes out on stage in front of everyone. So many seniors were crying and I was probably one of the worst. I gave Katie her present who was my off night for Aunt Eller, and that started the tears. When I sang OKLAHOMA for the last time I cried more, and watching all the seniors giving Masser their presents got me the most. Although when I have her my present I was halfway trying to tell her how amazing she was and couldn't get the rest out I was crying so much. She gave me the opportunity to shine on stage for four years and those are the best memories I will polly ever have from high school.

It was a very emotional night for all the seniors and we all will miss high school musicals and plays. But even in all of this sadness I need to look forward to college and all the shows I plan on doing then. So as a wonderful way to end this blog here is OKLAHOMA. 

MUSICAL TIME!!!!!!!!!!!

So today is the opening night of the musical Oklahoma! I'm extremely excited and also sad since this is my last musical with Masser. Anyways updates, Ben went back to Charlotte for his internship and is at work right now actually, I have been exhausted for the past week, all this fun musical stuff is driving me insane. I can't wait for tomorrow night since that is my cast night!!!!!

Good news for me :D

Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo guess who got some good news today????? ME THAT'S WHO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I got an email from Prof Jowers who is one of the professors in my audition and I got a $1500 scholarship that will go out of my tuition every year!!!! And also............................... I GOT INTO THE A CAPELLA CHOIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That one is the BIG EXCITING NEWS!!!! This group is known EVERYWHERE and my senior year we will be going to RUSSIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW EXCITING IS THAT??????? This means though I am going to have no spring break what-so-ever because that's when the tour is.

EXCITMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My good news has arrived and I am extremely happy. Also my mom told me that today we will be buying my labtop!! Eeeekkkkk!! There's some MORE excitement for ya!! It's just been a good news day :)

First step into my college life

Soooooooo this past weekend I went to Hickory North Carolina for an orientation for incoming freshman. It was great!! I got to meet my future roomie who i KNOW i will love and get along with just fine. ;D I walked around and familiarized myself with the campus, ate in the dining center, and just had a good ol' time.

I also had my music audition that day and that was a massive nerve enhancing moment. I got so scared I actually started to cry in the practice room. This audition determined if I got in the music department, if i get into the a Capella choir, and if i get scholarship money. I was shaking, crying, so nervous before the audition. I did though get to talk to another high school senior and we both calmed ourselves down a bit, but then we got a little worried since my audition ran late. Over 20 minutes late. When they finally came out and called my name I wanted to run away. But instead I walked into that room and sang The Water is Wide and Ave Maria.

Something amazing that I got to so was spend the day with a college student who was majoring in music education and spend the night in her dorm room with her! I got to sit in an a Capella choir practice, she took me to a mexican subway pretty much called Salsaritas, and I sat in the lobby talking to all these college students and it was awesome!! I slept on an ait mattress and talked to both girls about Greek Life because they were both a part of a sorority and I have been kinda thinking about it. Then the next morning I sat in a aural studies class and that was an experience.

The whole experience was wonderful! But of course something bad has to happen to me cause that's just what happens. I never really got a chance to text Ben through the day and night because I was so busy, I told him what I was doing and that night I turned off my phone to go to bed. But then the roomie of the dorm i was staying in brought 2 friends with her and we stayed up talking until midnight. I didn't get the chance to text him back at all until the morning. That's when I got two rather meanish sounding texts from Ben about me going to bed before calling him, i texted him I was sorry but he was still annoyed at me. So i ignored it and went to breakfast. After breakfast I was walking to class with the girl I stayed with and we sat down ready for class. I pulled out my phone to quick text Ben what I was doing when I got a REALLY mean text from him about how I didn't dare call him before going to sleep when I never had the chance. I got pissed and didn't answer him. Then about halfway during class he texts me again twice saying how he understands that this is how it's gonna be and that I'm never gonna text him, call him or anything. That I'm going to ignore him at school and he won't see me unless he comes to me. Pretty much being super asshole. I almost cried right there in the middle of the class.

So after class I called him, massively bitched him out and then bust into tears. I cried and screamed at him for over 30 minutes in front of my uncles house. Then my mom walked outside and found me in a shitty state just bawling my eyes out. I was hurt so bad... I don't think I can even describe the pain I was feeling it was that bad. Because he did ALL of that to me last year but NEVER told me why or what he was doing. I DID!!! Not my fault he forgot... anyways I told him that if anything like that happens again I'm done. I've been hurt so much I don't think I can take anymore. Yes I know he must be hurting too and I know he's been through a lot, but he doesn't have to use me as a punching bag and i am NOT letting him walk over me ANYMORE!!!! I'm so sick of it!! It's just not right...

Anyhow we talked, things are okayish... I took off my promise ring though. I don't wanna wear it now... I can't see it on my finger without feeling torn to bits that the Ben that gave me that promise ring I don't see much of anymore. So I currently have it on a chain around my neck, I'll put it back on when I feel that my Ben is back for good and not this new assholeish Ben I have been dating for a year and a half. Sorry that was a bit of a rant there... haha

Anyhows that was my trip. I hope things get better for me and I am DYING to know how my audition went.

Love and Kisses, Anna <3

Mr.Lonely - Bobby Vinton

This song pretty much sums up my life recently...

BIIIIIIIIIIIIG decision to consider...

Soooooooooooooooooooooooo I have been thinking about this for almost two monthsish and I KNOW am asking people's opinions on what they think.

So next year I am going to Lenoir-Rhyne University and planning on majoring in Business and minoring in Music. For my major I would like to take that to a big city like New York, Chicago, San Francisco, and open my own Event Planning Business. I would eventually like to focus on weddings but I am going broad with events to start off. I want to start off in a hotel or a resort out of school as the event planner there (i would basically plan any event taking place there). Anyways... where I'm going with this is I am SERIOUSLY considering opening my own small event planning business right now. Here in Pennsylvania. And what I want is your opinion, should I do this?? I have looked at both good and bad things with this.

Good:
1. I would get my feet wet in the business
2. I would get experience
3. Extra income of money for myself
4. With graduation coming up I could help plan the party's
5. It would get my name out there (sorta)
6. I would have stuff for my portfolio

Bad:
1. I'm only 18 and not experienced enough to pull this off
2. No one would use me as their planner
3. This could actually make me lose money
4. I will be going to college in the fall and may not have time for this

I would LOVE to do this and it would really help me get some extra money for college and extra things like gas. I really need to start getting more money, I'm a super poor person and I am only buying gas!! I REALLY got to save up a LOT more for college, and with the salary I'm making now I won't save up much. It will all be gone first semester with books.

But here is my idea! I would really love your opinions both good and bad. I would like to start this soon if I will be doing this.

2011 overview

So another year has come and gone, and it went by sooo fast. I decided to write out a list of all the good and bad things that happened this year as an overview of what happened to me. If i can remember it all that is, I did so much...

2011:

• I got my license in January 
• Got my first edible arrangement from my boyfriend for valentines day
• Got a lead in the musical
• Got my first job at Infinitos Pizza Buffet
• Had a few fights with Ben over spring but worked everything out by summer
• Got to meet a famous saxophone player in the jazz band
• Had a lot of car issues and once got stranded on a highway
• Started working on my graduation project which consists of cleaning and organizing a WHOLE music library
• Started college searching
• Visited Elon University and Lenoir-Rhyne University as possible options
• Went to prom with my bestest girlfriend Beckie
• Started watching, and got hooked on True Blood
• Began my compulsiveness shopping problem in June
• Worked a lot over the summer
• Watched Ben's nephew Brendan a few times
• Started my last year of marching band with the Incredibles
• Went to Montana to visit family
• Chilled in a hot tub for the first time in my life and LOVED IT!!!
• Went to Yellowstone National Park and saw soooooo many amazing sights
• Went to Knoebels with Ben for a day
• Started off the school year having an argument with Ben and watching him drive away wanting to punch him
• Made a new friend in marching band <3
• Visited Millersville as a possible college option
• Applied to Lenoir-Rhyne University and Millersville University
• Started a fashion blog and discovered a love of fashion and photography
• Decided I wanted to be a wedding planner for a career
• Got accepted to Lenoir-Rhyne University and was soooooo excited!!
• Started having lower back pains that were so painful had to go on many medications
• Was the Charwoman in play A Christmas Carol
• Had massive flooding which destroyed our downstairs rooms
• Joined a singing group called Shining Light
• Had a white Halloween which threw me off ridiculously
• Went to Teen Challenge for Shining Light and met some wonderful men there who i respect
• Began hanging out more with an old friend and we got closer <3
• Went to Rikers Island with Shining Light and sang for inmates which was an interesting experience
• We lost drastically in Championships for marching band
• Turned 18
• Discovered online shopping
• Visited North Carolina family for Thanksgiving
• Started talking to other people going to LR next year
• Was the Queen at Madrigal
• Sang at Hershey Bears game
• Got the lead i wanted in the musical for 2012
• Got a $0.10 raise at work...
• Back started getting REALLY bad so have to start physical therapy
• Money started getting VERY tight
• Went negative on my account and now have a $30 charge from the bank
• Been able to see Ben again after four months
• Lost my voice almost christmas eve
• Learned a LOT more about myself this year than any year i've had so far

So that is my quick overview of 2011. I hope i remembered everything but i probably didn't. I look forward to this year with great anticipation, and I hope everyone has a safe and happy new year.